my balck diary

with my love

2009-11-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

heloo
it been a long time im blogging..
sorry just kinda lazy to update so now im back
yesterday sch ends at 1130 then back home ..
need to meet aan at 4 pm at bugis.
ok by the tym i reach home,it already shows 1+ goin 2.
i quickly prepare myself .
then i realised that im late
i msg him " sir im know im late ,u dont pump me.i scared"
then he say we jokes around in msg
at alst i reach there first haha
then go e shooping centre book tickets.. we took e show that start at 8 pm
then while waiting we went to bugis library look for my love novel..
theres some novel that he choose for me..
then got one thick novels if im not wrong the tittler is THE MEANING OF FAITh
its about love story between two lover.
we took some books and some magazine and sat ,,
after reading magazine,he took the book THE MEANING OF FAITH and he read it..
so cute..
im e one who want to read the book but end up he read it.. and its all about love.
i cant belive that my bf read it.
then some of the content we read it together.. its about love couples...
and the book that i pick up contents a lot of meaningful word.
we read it together and we learn from it together.
for e.g the book said that is girl jealous?if in realtionship and it explain why girls react like that manner and he read all of it..
i love like this where couples get to learn info about relationship and what problems occuring.
well after that ,went to lJS to eat.i told him i haven ate whole day coz no tym except eat hello panda.then he say "i dun wan u to eat the potato chips crazy potatoes at LJS "
then i say i dun care i still wan.
he said i must eat more i heavy meal at LJS coz i haven eat whole day..
but im stubborn so at last he gave up n say"one condition,if u wan to eat e potato chips crazy potatoes,we must buy big popcorn later on ok". deal:)
after eating just nice,we went back to the shopping centre buy popcorns and go in cinema.watch the 2012.
suddenly my heart pain coz inside was so freezing cold.
and i cant sit properly as my backbone also cramp.
when watching ,i massage my backbone.. and suddenly his hand push my hand away and he massage my shoulder.
owh so sweet.
ok the show was so sad but nice to watch..
its was scary when disaster happens.
show ended at 10 plus. i took bus.he sent me to bustop..
then when my bus arrive,i board the bus and he off to take mrt back home.
though it was a short day,i enjoyed it very much.

last fri,went to pasir ris,went to his house .. he changed his clothes then lend his bicycles and we cycling at pasir ris park.. it was so enjoyable as he said that was part of celbrating our anniversary together.it was fun as he keep challenging cycling together and he keep tackle me while im cycling.. very fun ..

ok i gtg byes:)

2009-11-02T06:22:00.000-08:00

have a big misunderstandng with bf just now..
its all from me.. im e causes of it..
why im e one who always hurt my loved ones..
it always be me.
syg,im sorry if u feel hurt by my words..
sometimes,i said some words without thinking twice..
n u made me realise my mistakes..
i love u and maybe i said that because of my emotions..
im sorry .
i promise this will be the last time i said words that hurts u.
im realli realli sorry dear..
(im typing this though i knew u not reading this..i just want to let out my feelings)
i wan to change!..
no more lame and irritating afiqah..
i want to be a brand new afiqah.. which has a positive attitude.

school day

2009-10-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

hello yesterday im abit earlier than expected.
class start at 815 but i came at 820.first time i came early normally i came at 9 or 9 +
ok b4 going to cnnc room(practical rm),i chg to safety shoes.
then aan came awhile to see ..
just a few seconds..lol
ok then back to work,easy stuff to do.
for all ur info,my gpa is 1.75
its up to u all whther to belive or not..well,i gonna ask assistance from armsyar, a guy fren of mine which is jan intake.
bf also ask me to approach him for my own good.quite encoraging right?
ok then at 9+ got break time..went to co op shop to buy drinks.
ok then my 2 indian went back to class after that.lol.but i didnt want to coz teacher gave us a long time for break..then sat alone..
msg aan to accompany me.. so he came from far canteen to the precision engineering department and accompany me to talk.then a bunch of malay guys from my class saw me n him sitting together,.
they knew it already coz they saw us together before few days ago.so confirm,they gossip
actually yesterday my fren has already book me to go out together.
but i oso wan to spent time with aan.
so at last aan ask me out coz i said that i wan to go out with him.he didnt know that i had planned with my frens at first. so my frens disspointed.but i said to them dun worry,i wont forget u guys..
ok then after sch ,wait aan near our department there.he said he gonna prayed first..
so he join his frens to pray.. n good news i join my fren to amk hub..so happy:)
walk all e way to amk hub..can't stop laughing..
very fuuny thing happen..with my fren.
ok at 145,went to see bf.
bye to all my fren.
ok bf bring me to amk hub awhile to use com
ok then went peninsular to look for his shoes.
he';s not a kind of fussy.
he want vans shoes.
he ask me to pick suitable for him.
ok then search all e way.
i pick on shoes a slip on shoes ..he ltry and he fall in love with it..
but so sad,no size for him.next shop,oso theres no size for him.
then we choose the same pattern but string shoes.. no size also..
wow,.
then he bought smart shirt at there.suddenly he gave me $30.lol. iwas so shock.he say go n choose what clothes u want and pay it using the money.i was speechless
nop more already after a big round,proceed to bugis..
search bugis junction,not found.then i bought a long skirt n long sleeve shirt at there.he waited for a long time..lol.he's a patient guy.he knew i like shopping.
then walk around ther,he say he want to buy polo shirt there. so search everywhere.then i found polo t,nicely coloured.
he bought two pieces..both of them i choose for him.
wow..whatever i choose,he just took it and buy.
ok then go bugis junction,serch everywhere but thers no vans shoes there..
actualli got so many shoes that nice,but he like vans shoes coz it branded.
after that proceed to tampines mall,walk around.ate our dinner there..
window shopping again.. at last ,we found a shop..and saw a vans shoes there.but theres no slip on shoes but got same pattern like what i chose in penicular but this time its got string to tie..
nno choice,coz the pattern is suitable for him n i like it,he bought it which cost $59.90
yesterday was a tiring but fun day.
we both like somekind cute couple.. i still rembered in the mrt.i was standing beside him n talk.we tease each other and i blink at him,he oso blink at me..
he then walk away stand further than me..
i look at him n blink again.he did the same and he pretending to be whistling.. and i was burst out laughing in the mrt
then we spotted one aunty looking at us and smiling..
ok ta tampines,we also tease each other.. its like sweet..i laughing n say "u wan to know secrte?'he say "what''
i then whisper at his ear"nothing"
lol.then he like laugh ..he say u wan to knoe e top secret and he whisper"not funny"
i blink n say "not funny then dun laugh la"
hahahah
a lot things that we quarrel like teasing each other.
for e.g i like to use me finger and poke his shoulder.. and he sae'' stop it can,"
i say"cannot"
he then do at me back.im laughing whenhe do at me coz very funy and he so cute..
ok went home at 10..reacher home 11+.. then shower n sleep

2009-10-13T08:52:00.000-07:00

hey people
im back to blogging..
sorry for not updating for so long..
sch had just started yesterday..
went school and my day started with a lectured by pe teacher.so sad.he say i well dressed nice and proper but not active ..lol.im just started to active by yesterday but then my fren dun wan to join me.. then at last we being lectured.but seriously,i did wan to chg.
on the first day of school,meet with bf..
he look tired n it made me bored..
ok then..maybe lack of rest..
after that,went home wit rat n jazz.. we walk from campus all the way to amk hub..
fun..
then walk2 a while then went back.
i drop at lot 1 libry a while to pay library fine which cost 42 dollar..now my bank is bankrupt.
i being talk in a a not right manner by librarian coz its complicated as i got library card losses and its cnt pay fines,,then went back in a sad mood.
found my library card rush to bp libry to pay.finaly,its paid.
then went home shower then go religious class.
at nite,msg bf.we quarrel ..
sorry cant tel u why here..
but today morning was okie..
lunch time,i meet him.. he treat me for my lunch.then walk2 all e way to a long route..
then we quarrel as in like teasing each other to make each other jealous..haha.
but then actualli i was just joking..
he too..
then went back sch..
my realtionship is having up n down at times..
but theres olways a way to settle..
we not keeping in silent when we r having down.. we find a solution. coz silent doesnt solve a problem.. am i right?
the quarrel sometimes did makes our relationship or make my love grew stronger..
do any of u experience this??
well this is the first time,im in love with someone who easily for me to take care..
coool.

2009-09-19T00:32:00.000-07:00

sorry for not updating for so long..

were quite busy lately,no time for blogging.

want to see my blog back to alive??

haha

ok..

hmm..nothing special happen recently .

my status changed to in a relationship on 090909.

what a lucky day right.

well,whenever i spent tym with him,i very happy..

you know why coz i keep talking non stop n laugh out loud.

i show my true clors which is talkative.

well to some people may though im quiet girl,but once i close with a person,i keep talking n talking..

this hari raya we going to visit each other house..

he really want to meet my mom..

haha

last week,we went geylang..

i told that it been a longtime i step there so one day he brought me there..

we spent for about 3 hours to look for my mom scalf.

he want to buy for mom..

ok then went back ..even reach home so tired at qaround 12 30,,we still can even talk for a while at around 1+.. though he was feeling stomach pain..

ok ..

currently so sad coz my bro took back his ns phone n i no hp for nw..:(

to shu ting,im realli realli sorry for e white hp..

i dunno what i gonna do nw..

im not working n short of cash..

haiz..

i wan hp now!any hp will do..pls

2009-08-29T19:46:00.000-07:00

hey
yesterday woke up in the morning to prepared myself to bedok interchange.thought of going with anis,but end up not coz she reach jurong east earlier than me.then receive msg from farhan,morning msg.
ok went to bedok,then anis called.she ordy reach at the blk.then she ask me to wait at one place and must wait for amsha to come .at there mr mus willl fetch us wit his car.since i rch earlier,i wait2.then i heard a car hon.i went in the car and contact amsha..few min ltr,amsha came.
mr mus sent us to the blk..
anis,one chi guy(her fren) has ordy reach.where's farhan?
haha
i just knew that farhan is coming on the way but he walk instead of taking mr mus car.
ok while waiting,went up to the floor and took some pictures.
the house we going to paint ,the owner is not around so went to the first floor back and wait for farhan.farhan came,mr mus asked him to go up jin the other group.lol.i thought he going to do with my group..
ok so i,amsha,anis n one chi boy took mr mus car and went to haig rd there.a malay hs.
then i saw one boy whom loos familiar.he is our sch students.yesh i rember i admire him when i stepped in to sch on first day.he from DMD course.it seem that he also volunteer to do the painting works.his name is shafiq.
ok i went in the hs..then got still some ite amk student oso.so i n anis chg our chirt and take charge of painting the kitchen.then have break a while.went outside the hs to take a seat.this is the time i started to become so cheerful.i keep laughing and lughing because of this chi boy always create a jokes with children and involving me n the others.. shafiq oso joining me,anis n amsha in conversation but he rare tok to me.
l keep lauh n laugh.as time pass along,i n amsha was like close.we talk everytg .during panting at the acnteen,we a a team talk2 and laugh2.the day is full with laughter.then got one time,only left me n anis in the kitchen painting,anis say that one of his fren wan to know me more..i was like who?
she say shafiq.
haha..then i say i know ordy wad..then anis respon.."not know like that manner,he wan to know u as in other manner"
then i just keep quiet.
i am tired so i went outside to sit alone .shafiq came and sit beside me.he didn't even tok to me.i also shy mah..
ok next,paint the bathroom.i wore a plastic on my head.i and anis paint.i covered my whole head with palstic bags and paint coz i scared the pait on the ceiling will fall on my hair.without m,y knowing,shafiq came and see and he burst out laughing and pointed at my head.i was like paisey and close e door a bit.
then paint n paint.very fun sia.during painting also,i keep laughing.now i realise i have an interest in doing the social work.then few min ltr,shafiq came again.this time i turn my head.look at him.and we smile at each other.
ok at 4 oclock,anis n me went back.shafiq n amsha stay there coz anis has work to do so i went back with her.the day has really benefits me a lot..fun,enjoyable.
the frenshp of me n amsha is getting close and i've made new frens.what the most happy is that..i brought out some cheerfulness during the volunteering work..:)

2009-08-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

hey today is fri.
as usual came sch then teacher nag a bit coz of late..
as i was coming on the way in sch,i from behind saw amsha .he went to photocopy shop.
ok then me n my fren went to locker to change our safety shoes.
then amsha walk pass.i pretend that i don't know.
then he look n like smile at me.i smile back.
ok during break time,i n my fren sat at e bench.
then mr mus came n ask me to join in the community event tomorow.wow wad a last min.
then i follow him to look for amsha.ok tehn we discuss about it.
ok at 1030,meet mr mus again at automative workshop.
he gave us the consent form.we were asked to visit the needy families and paint their room.wow i was so excited about it..
i,amsha,anis and another one boy that i just knew name farhan is one team.
so tmr we gonna mit up together at interchange and mr mus will fetch us up by his car.i am so happy to be given a chance in helping the social event.
points will be added in cca points and gPA point will be upgraded.
ok i have to go.will update about it soon.

2009-08-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

today is ok.came sch then having workshop a while.. glad that i n my fren reach at the same stage of work being done. yeah,team work.
then during recess time,sit2 at the table.stdying for coming up quiz.after recess,just gotta know that there is no quiz as it was cancelled.
well ok then.
after sch,meet anis..
talk2 a while with ratna and jazelah.
few min ltr,ratna and jazelah went back.left me n anis sitting down at e bench talking.we were waiting for our cca which started at 5pm.
i actualli ended class at 315.so have to wait n wait.
ok at 4 35 like that,amshah came.anyway amshah isa guy whom i just knew from anis.she introduce to me.. well very coincidence,he also the same cca as us.
ok then went to music studio.watch karoake awhile.. amsha sat beside me..
didn't tok much to him..lol.
ok then uncle mus(music teacher) ask we all to bring guitar out of the usic studio n proceed to canteen to practice..
well i just want to learn guitar..
uncle mus was so look worried coz he just knew that musc club members should perform something during teachers day..
so let the others learn it first while im just flipping the muscical booklet learning the basic first,i copy down the codes for the playing guitar on a piece of paper.amsha came n sit beside me..he say its better for me to take photo on the hp rather than copy on paper.i say" use ur hp can,,my camra not gd ah.." so he took his hp n take photo n send to my hp.after that he walk away.funny part,i can't even receive one of the photo coz memeory too big.i was like duhh.
then i flip abit of his photo album.he so cute,like chinese.
ok then join him..he learning guitar with anis..
then a few while later,a bunch of mly guys came..
one of them ask me" r u also our music members,u new?''
i just smile n say nod my head.
ok this guy turn up to be frenly like a joker.made me laugh .
haha
then at 6pm,proceed back.coz our breakfast is around 7..
ok then took bus with amsha,anis and the rest of the guy behind.
the bus was like abit fast or something that make amsha hand fall on my hand,his elbow was like touching my elbow..then we talked about some stuff..
and rch at yck orxdy,we go our own ways..
anis ask me"u like amsha ?"i say no luhh..he's a type of guy whom easy going to talk with..
well,i dunnno..onli god knows what my feeling actuallY.
haha
ok i just very happy and u now smtg at first thought i see amsha when i started skooling,i thought he's a philipine guy but end up get to noe he's a pure islam.
ok bye bye:)

2009-08-12T05:58:00.000-07:00

i broke with danial..
really irritating n sad..
wont elaborate here..
bye

2009-08-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday ,met him after sch..
my sch end at 1030
then slack with my frens at amk hub.
at 2 waited for him ..
at 245 then he came coz got somethg on..
go watch movie..
then sent him home..
i was sad coz i tink is my last time in tis mth i sepnt time with him..
on the way bvack while i waiting for my bus,,
my eyes almost tears going to flow down..
my eyes so red..
n i look so sad.
he ask"are u crying?''
i say no..
he has to be home at that point of time but at last he wait till i go..
"i can't bear to leave u alone here with urt conditon like tis.."
when bus came,i hold his hand kissed him and i quickly walk away without turning back at him..
few min later i receive msg from him"im sorry if i hrt ur feeling,i have no intention t make u sad"
but then,i told him everythg about my sadness.
and he did advise me ..
im back to good mood..
today morning at 5 ,receive msg from him saying that he have to go melaka..
tmr he will b back..
gosh,his present still i haven wrapped it up..
lucky there much time to do it..
i miss him

2009-08-08T07:03:00.000-07:00

on last wed,meet danial after sch..
we hang out at our usual place..
sharing some stuffs..
very fun..

2009-08-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

hey back
today feeling very tired in sch..
i skip my pe lesson so i sepnt my early morning time talk to my mum abt my bf..
she seem to approves my relationship..
gerek kn??
hhaha
msging danial all e way..
i can't meet him coz i got religious clas same goes to shu ting.. i really not free these two days mon n tues.
after sch,danial msg me he told he sick n just come bck frm clinic..
i was like damn worried..
feel like come his hs to visit him like that..
hmm..
danial n aqi(cuzzin) have noe each other..
so surprising..
i still emeber danial ,me aqil sat down n we watch soccer match together,,
i(extreme left),danial(middle) n aqil(extreame left)
we three are like siblings coz three of us wears white..
actualli we never plan that we wore white but itr was such coincidence,,
ok danial ask me outo see fieworks.
he wanted to ask aqil along but aqil hang out with family.,.

actualli at first my mum dun let me go..but danial said that he will take gd care of me..
then i respond to him "DON U dare left me aloe ah,haha"
n he say ok..

i realli miss him alot seyy..
ps:i love danial irfan bin rohaizad..

2009-07-31T19:37:00.000-07:00

wake up at 5 30 ..n one person pops in my mind n that is danial..
everyday my stadard time to wake up is at 530.. but after wake up ,i just slacking on ma bed..
then receive bf msg wake up.,.
it always like that,,
once i receive msg from hi,i become alive..
msging him..
i still thinking whether i should accompany see him watch soccer tomorrow..
should i go or not..?
hmm..

2009-07-31T06:00:00.000-07:00

going school alone just now.,ratna and jazelah was afar apart than me.. so i decided to go first..
ok having cnc lesson.
learning a new topic..
ok suddenly my hp was off..
i was so damn sad..
then jazelah lent me her hp and i use it to msg danial..
ok than meet him up,slacking and studying..
i was nearly touched and wanted to cry when he say something to me..
i was speechless.
we hugged..
sharing problems and e latest updates..
its fun..
ok after that he sent me home..
talk2 a while and home sweet home

2009-07-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

today wake up.. class strt at 9 but i never turn up for s care coz i thought dun have..
wake up at 8..
receive bf msg at 6+..
then went sch..
feel so slipy today..
lucky bf keep msging me making me alive back.
after sch,went to ratna hs at jurong west..
they never do much..
i do more about searching info..
they say they lazy to do it..
so by not wasting my time,i search as more info about the project..
at last.. at 8 n+ went home,,
msging bf,,
n soon i goin slip

2009-07-29T05:51:00.000-07:00

wake up early morning.. saw xueli,nurul n lalitha at bustop.i even saw fir in e bus.. xueli n me went up ..ask her acompany see my bf.ok after that she go.slack with bf a while..sent him to sch.today afternoon class is cancell so class end at 1130..
accompany one gal from other class muminah a few while then at 1..zoom to amk hub.
walk2 around and my heart feel not in ease,,
meet danial at usual place.he told me that he got sick just now ..
gosh wad my heart tells its true..
i have a six sense that told me that.
after that,keep chit chatting,shring problems with him..
it was damn fun..
i look damn worried..
but he keep consoling me..
tmr cant meet coz have to do my project..
:(.
he realli my great listener,,
ps:i realli love danial irfan.

2009-07-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

wake up at 6+ go shower..then receive bf msg..
he say wanna mit me again after sch..
ok after sch ,went meet him..
talk2 all e stuff and he got problem..
mmy face reaction realli look sad when i meet him..
i knew he got problem when he shares to me ,i becoming more worry..
but after a short period,i becoming talkative and happy..
we talk talk and he always find somehing topic that makes me laugh..
kiss him..
at 7,he sent me to my bus..
tmrw he going to meet me again before sch starting..
Ps:im olwys there when u need someone to listen to u when u got problem..danial

2009-07-27T06:23:00.000-07:00

school should ended at 430 but i leave at 345 coz my work has finish and i already ask permisiion from teacher..
in workshop just slacking around..
saiful ,kiki ,ameer,me was like joking around..so funny sia..
i laugh2 oni..
funny part is kiki wears for saiful make up loose powder when saiful was talking to azrina.
then i was saying"kiki,wears for him blusher too ah"
i was laughing non stop ..
saiful was like so cute say"dun la..later my face like girl girl..eh kiki dun wear for me make up thick thick can..later guy like me.."
hahaha
he acting like gay,
went off and meet danial at woodland..
sit2 at library..
chit chat and laughing out..
he was saying"eh u.. u r fit to be teacher..u noe wad type of teacher..a teacher whom a joker"
laugh laugh..
he sent me to my bustop..kiss*
and home sweet home

ps:i love danial irfan

2009-07-24T18:27:00.001-07:00

feeling dull after back from work..
feel like vomiting..
i having food disorder this days..
argh!
just now went to work..
and i already told my love earlier that i will msg him after i end work but instead he keep msging me during my working time.. he such a caring boy..but now at nite already,i suddenly stop receiving msg from him..
miss him lots!!
i freaking worried ..
maybe his prepaid low..
if low,hope u top up ur card as soon as possible..
ps:i love danial irfan

2009-07-24T18:27:00.000-07:00

hello good morning wake up very early at 6 today ..but i still lying on my bed..haha..
until at 8 ,danial msg me..
every morning,he without fail msging me,,,
haha..
anyway i love him more n more..
i shared all my probelms to him ..
n he did too..
but mostly we both joking around..and spent time together with laughter..
every fri,we will be studyinmg together..
he wanted to teach me on e drawing of 3rd angle projecyion which i weak in..
missing him now..

2009-07-24T07:51:00.002-07:00

yesterday class ended at around 4+.. in e mrt,saw one of my ex jourdan.. then i ran away.haha go to another platform..ratna and jazelah keep laughing looking at my reaction. meet danial at woodland.. a while walk2 around..
today class ended at 1130.. danial has oral.. so while waiting,slacked at yishun.. saw syukri..
at around 3+..I REACH woodland.. kol danial but he say he still in school arranging for NPcc cadets..
he askmed to buy ticket.
funny part when i go up to buy ticket..suddenly someone blew on me..
omg its danial..
he damn fast seyy..
he took taxi..
haha
so sweet..
but..
i help him paid for ticket..LOL.
o then watch harry potter..
tis e second time i watch sia.. aiyo.
nvm.
i was damn shivering inside..forgot to bring jacket..
show should ended at 7+ but i n him went off at 630 as he already promise his dad to be back home at 7.
he sent me to bustop..
i n him are so like talkative..
i enjoy talking to him..when i talk to him,my mouth can't stop talking..until i realise my watch shows 7 30.
when he realise he like say wth..hahah
funny ah him..
love him:)

2009-07-24T07:51:00.001-07:00

i love you:)

2009-07-16T07:35:00.000-07:00

funny part is that..
today i have CAD CAM lesson..
went to lab and sit on my own places..
n im stuck dont how to do..so i call teacher...

the story begin like this

me:teacher,help me i dont noe how to do
mr soh: who are u? r u new student?
me:its me larr.. last time i sit here what
mr soh: no..laqst time the girl different,u look different.. ahya just tell me u never come to class rite.. u different girl..this work is not belong to u..
me:(shock) ahya teacher its me .. ahya..dunno wad to say already
mr soh:last time the gal like (pointing to kiki) ..fat fat.. but u look different
my fren:its her la teacher..she makeover..she cut her hair that y look different
mr soh: realli ah?realli not look like u
me:haha..its me la cher

at least now mr soh treat me good.. last time he don bother me like that when i ask him question..now when i call,he will come but takes a bit time..
ok good.

2009-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

ok ok.,,
i wonder how come things changes..
now as if ameer n danial like not close to me like that..i dont know whther its my feeling that playing a fool on me..
close i refering that they not use to approach me n talk..
:(
so sad..
but ameer always notice n look at me from far.. but i just look n gave one small smile..
at least he did care to smile and shake my hands..
but danial..i miss tlking and sharing my wateva stuff to u..
come on..
i misss u both..seriously..
(as a frens)
will the times and memories came and develop again this time?
im hoping that..

school life

2009-07-15T07:11:00.000-07:00

im bankrupt..
maybe its due because im no longer working .. haiz..
i think i wanna work that recommended by shu ting mum.
today day was ok.
went to school with ratna and jazelah.
we three planne to wear white polo.it been a long time i wear white polo to school because my white polo T i lent to ratna as she wan to try the size but unfortunately it does not match her..
reach sch.. haha.class was like little people.
my fren azrina from west spring came visit my sch yesterday..
my whole bunch of classmates was keen interested with her.they wants her no.
saiful was lucky.
he came early today.he's e only mly guy that came early to class.after few min.i,saiful n kiki went to canteen.actually i wan to look for my fren..i was like searching all around canteen at last found her outside co op shop.
azrina like running avoiding me..
haha i think she malu because i brought saiful along with me..
haha
funny part is that when i was like talking to azrina walking side to her and i intend to call saiful i called him"apit!" instead..
haha
wrong name i pronounce,,
ok so i walk and told azrina to look again at saiful.saiful n kiki was sitting at one place at canteen.
when azrina look,she say wow,so cute..can la give my no.
heee..
then join saiful n kiki sitting at canteen talk talk.
saiful was indeed cute n funny..
i was about to give azrina no. to him and his hp is lagging n jammed.
haha..
his face was like frustrated v. funni.
few min ltr,ameer,neeran,danial,aman n afif came.shake hands with them and at that point of time i was on the phone with azrina..
ok back to class,pay attention.. bla bla bla...
do work..
exam is on end of aug.n i haven start my revision seriously..
its like totaly different ite like n sec 5 life.. during sec 5,one mth before o level i was like so kachong..but ite,i nvr feel anythg.. maybe haven time yet.. i wan study soon then.
at 3.00 got break for 15 min.. went toilet with frens.then went i came in to class.. ameer say aloud ''afiqah hotstuff ah''
i like scared to look at him but ain was like looking n smiling at me..
so i just gave one smile to myself n go to my own seat.
it been a long time i let go my hair..
so today i let go my hair.. my gurl fren all like say i makeover or what seyy.. coz my hair cutting made me look diferent..
ok i got to go..
:)

2009-07-07T08:47:00.000-07:00

boredom strike me today:(

today sch start at 8 but i came at 830 like that. at least better than last time which i always use to come at 9 30.clash up with xueli at bustop so we took e same bus together to woodlands.
today lifeskill is cancel so go back at 1130.
eheh
so early rite..
im bored at e workshop coz ameer never attend school .
ok after sch,went off to amk hub.
check my salary.gotten my slary.for your information,i think this will be my last pay coz i no more working.
well nvm.
walking around with doreen at there.
but too bad,she not a type of window shopping girl..
boring ..
so after that i myself zoom to cwp,
im shopping by myself.
buy a lot of stuff.
..
and i spent $60
its big value but i tink its worth coz i bought a lot of things,,
ok then went home..
mum say i dunno how to save money,.,
well i just say that the things that i wanted to buy long time ago mah..so since this will be my last salary i just spent on it..
at least i feel satisfied..
yay!
by the way,at times,i feel better to go shopping alone by myself..
i feel relax
ok.. tell u something this fewe days i like to be alone by myself..
its not im a type of anti social but i just need space..
even if i hang with my clasmates,i feel bored and sometimes i will talk rubbish n they dont even understand wahat im toking.
that is why i love to be alone sometimes.,.
until i met a true fren who approach me and really concern about me.

2009-07-06T07:48:00.000-07:00

am so bored today..
somemore kamilah never turn up..
today got workshop but my teacher neve come so my group slacking..
i was super bored so i just talk 2 to teacher..
n i am e onli gal in my group. ameer sat beside me trying to talk but i never talked much.
then he took my hp n took the pic of us.. LOL
but i say not nice but he say nice.
then after that he went off home,telling teacher that he sick.teacher let him off.
i thought wanna spending my time talking to danial but danial was talking to afif. afif from other group but he came to my group to share problem to danial.
i am not close to afif so i never joined them.
i miss spending my time talking with D & A hope my mood will rise up so i will be talkative to them.
went home around 4.slep sleep..then wake up at 930 back.
ok tat all for today..

2009-07-05T06:23:00.000-07:00

today is a sad day:(
enter work then sir nathan look at me n greet me.i did greet back but he can't hear. n he say y i never greet him .he joking around with me,
told him that im scared..then he console me bla bla bla
i had problem with nazreen n sir noes about this,onli bugan ,sir n renu noes the real situation that happen between me n nazreen.
talked to bugan .i keep asking why nazreen mad at me.,
then sir heard our conversation n he say"enough lar..stop talking about nazreen can or not??"
then bugan ask "y sir?u jealous ah?"
sir respond made me laugh
he say"of course lahh,i n nazreen fighting for afiqah u noe"(in a serious mode)
i n bugan made eye contact and we giggle
wad seyy aunty supiah go n paotou all about my weakness to sir nathan.so bad seyy.
then she left me alone at e base n she do other thing,
cannot expect i doing alone right.. i did a lot of mistakes,,
n tat a point of time sir scolded me in a harsh mode..
i knew im realli cnt focus properly today because my mind is running alot of things and i did not have anough sleep,
i onli slept for 1 n half hour,
i nearly cry..
H came to base n help do abit,
after that ,azrina came..she like popular.she so preety seyy
then i told her that i had a feeling for H.
and guess what she did.
she go n tell him seyy.
it was so embarassing..
so today is the last day i worked.
i don care anymore.i msg sir..that i going off
but in e first place,i got asks hows h condition about yesterday accident and he say he's ok.
then daeng go n tel H wad i asking about him etc.
well,i realli felt dispointed of people around me..
im ugly,stupid and fat fat fat...
staff in ethe kfc called me Elephant,
very bad:(
i dont what to do,
if i work,for what??
earn money??
money now not so important for me.if i wan to buy smtg,i just collect my pocket money la.
i dont want to hear any more consolling from any manager.
curently jennifer is my fav manager,,
now i noe her charater..
she very fierce at me on the early part i work until one two time made me cry because she wan me to learn n do work properly n nOw she chg a lot.she very nice to me.
and sir marlon whom i admire last time is now turn to bad.he no longer caring,,
he olwys give answer dONT know whenever i ask something..
he only act nice to me at first because he wan new staff to like him .but now hes change..
sir nathan.. a very nice an caring manager.olwys focus on cleanliness.. he will shout and scold when people do improper job.
if u were me,which one will u choose??
sir nathan,sir marlon or sir nathan..
ok stop talking about this?its useless coz it makes me more sad

2009-07-04T08:40:00.000-07:00

hey hi !!
ok yesterday went peninsular with my mum, mum fren n small bro.
trained there..
when reaching the place,i feel the place not so nice but the things are super cheap la seyy.
onli buy bags there as i already told my mum about my target what to buy.
i onli took one thing..
then after that,went to burger king n eat..
ok at around 6 + back home..
feeling tired... and disturb2 my bro.. haha.c.ute u noe.
i hardly sleep at nite ..so slept at 3+.
suddenly i dream of H. haha..
haha..then wake up,i say to myself ala it just a dream.
feeling so excited to come work to see him.
when reaching workplace,sir nathan was so happy when he see me..
he keep asking how am i..
he n sir marlon say my perfume nice..then sir nathan like wan to stand near my and sniff..haha
quite funny as i like avoiding from him like that.
then ask me about nazreen.lOL
i love him sia.. (as a manager) .then when i say i wan to quit and this week is the last week.he automatically say NO.
then give me advise all..whoah i like man to listen his advise.
he ask me learn cashier that thingy.
then i say cannot then he say nvm later he can teach me as in privately so i can get it well..
so touching sey him.
then daeng came office saying that H is in accident and need hp to take his photo.
at first i can't hear properly who is it?then when i asked again,he say its H.
omg i feel really sad n damn worry.but i never tell anyone .
i supposely came at 3.but i came like 5 min late..sir nathan never scold me..
haha
and he talk to me for a like 30 min lyk tat.. haha..whne he talk,i dun nid to work.and i just listen onli.
got one point of time i say i scared of him then he say dont need to be scared of coz i n him are friends.
i admiring him seyy..
ok one bad incident suddenly happen,,
today there is a lot of customer.. and luckkily fariz stay awhile..so i,renu n fariz do base..
then nazreen owe salad but fariz say e zinger meat haven come out and have to hold for a few minute.
im sorry if i never respond to u nazreen coz i dun feel like talking to u.
ok it tooks time and i tink around 10min lyk tat,.
unfortunately,the cuztmer is a eurasion angmo.,
he complaining to manager sir nathan about e late serving.
OMG! thn i pity sir seyy when i see his face.
before nazreen went off home,i saw he interacting with sir nathan at e entrance.
nazreen face was so mad and he keep LOOKing at me with anger.
i guess something wrong or not good going on between sir n him.
so i msg nazreen n apologise.
and e respond that i get from him made my tears gonna drop.. his respond was so harsh and everything blame on me..
i so depressed sey.
n when i depressed,i feel that i can't focussed work properly.
i doing my work with my face down.
after few minutes,went to ladies.
i msg him back and scolded him back.
after that,i felt so energetic.
i do my work properly and i began to smile:)
i say to myself i must be strong enough to handle e situation even though at first though,i say that i wan to quit.
supposely to end work at 9.end up end at 10.haha
coz i n renu do work properly because tomorow morning is sir nathan n we don wan to see him angry..
then i n her hang around my workplace there n chit chat while waiting for her husband to come fetch her.
her husband also work at that mall too.
i expressed out my unhappiness to her.
after few min,husband came,i say to her husband to gave us another 10 min for us to talk first before going back.
hehe..he nice too,,
frenly")
renu say many thing to encourage me..
thnks:))
n now i freaking worry about H.

2009-06-30T08:49:00.000-07:00

hey back
let me share to u wad happen recently.
went to work at 9..
lOl
nazreen wait for me for so long,.,
u noe y?
at 8 ,he ordy in e bus..
while me,wake up at 745,,
ask him go first then..
reach work..
packed all e stuff in the kitchen.. chey,i feel like im a chef..
haha
okok
then arnd 11,rider came..
then one guy name H ask me"uu,got extra badge?'' thewn his fren say''hey,u never see ah got her bf at the counter there'',
then H apologise to nazreen.
then i walked pass H.H say"wah,nice perfuem..hmm"
then i just walked away.\
i dunno y.am i too arrogant?
or dun wan show nazreen that i don give attention to other guys/??
in e kitchen.. daeng approach me and whisper..''hey ,H wan to bring u to ride bike ?"i smile and look at H.at that time,H was sitting in e office.
he keep looking at wad im doing.for example,i am serving food.
then suddenly,sam(supervisor) and jennifer(manager) came.
H was talking to them at e office then suddenly sam call me"afiqah!" jennifer also called me"afiqah"
jennifer say"He wan to bring u out watch transformers with him"
then i immediately say ''ala he lying ah'
i dun really know he is telling the truth or wad.,, coz i tink tis is e 3 rd tym lyk tat he ask me out to watch movie..
everytym see him,he will smile at me..
and smtym ask me how am i?abt sch?ok or not?etc..and he did also ask whther i still with nazreen or wad/.?
haha
such a caring rider,,
then at one point he ask me''go home what tym? i ans'4"
then he like show boring face.. then i say''azrina ade aper''
the he say ''dun wan ah,she still a small kid''
ok. after work ..go back with nazreen.
went to play com .. at 7+ went back.nazreen keep begging me not to quit .and if i quit,i will face consequences from him..hah i noe he cnnt do antyg to ne
dad fetch me at bangkit lrt ..zoom to west coast to eat..
ok till here .

2009-06-27T02:13:00.001-07:00

i miss u !!
i miss u !!

2009-06-23T09:40:00.000-07:00

damn bored today.
i hate him.
i hate him
y ah my attitude olwys chg?
wad i mean is that later lng tym,my hateness chg to love,
argh !
i wish i could quit soon.,so that i began a new life later on

2009-06-21T21:10:00.001-07:00

went to work at 9..
met nazreen awhile then go in to workplace together but walk separately
during work.. we seem to be ok.
then after work,he walk to the beaty world thr..
he ask me to go home while he play game at the com shop game thr.
but i still stubborn saying that i want to folow him..
then i say i wan to take a look at e place thr..then he bring me out and ask me go hm.
my teas going to drop seyy.he just ask me go hm like that.is there any wrg if i just wan to tak e look of what he play.
realli so quarrelsome sey.
then with abit tears feel like dropping,i say OK i go hm.u wan me to go hm rite.?
then he like feel abit guilty and ask me go back in.
he say he fear i will feel bored..
he playing for 2 hr.after half and hour,he ask me to play com go surf internet so that i will not feel so bored.
but i don have money.he take out money from his wallet and pay for me.,
but i forgotten to say thank you.
at 7 went hm but nvr talk much,..
in the bus my face like look so sad coz i remeber back how he treat me smtym.. like sometym hurting ma feeling.

2009-06-18T20:44:00.000-07:00

hi...
today im working at 5..
currently slacking around the house..
can't wait for my salary
i wan to buy bags.
and when i free,mum say want bring me to peninsular..
weeeee~
yesterday met him again at work..
see when i just step in onli ,he ordy crack jokes,
joker..
olwys easy made me laugh..
currently upset coz my face got sunburn.,.
how i wish my face get to be back to normal again..
may tym heal it sooner..
anyway my ebuddy is creating problems at tym tats y smtym i cnt receive wad u all sent and tats e reason i offline,.,

2009-06-17T18:57:00.000-07:00

hello

this week everyday i work except on the first day which is monday..
coz on that day gt practical exam
on mon,came sch.. haven gotten finish all coz of limited time.
it just left two step which is finishing and drilling hole..
i guess i get dispointing result for milling test..
nvm..
i will work hard for my grinding test..
thanks to danial and ameer for their helping hand in the teaching for using the machine..
later when free time or sch reopen,i will try my best to finish up my work as soon as possible and hand up to teacher,after e test end,i,kamilah ,ameer n danial went to jp to eat..
ok.. then on thur ,went work.. nazreen was suppose to come at work in kitchen but end up he didnt turn up ..manager keep asking me but i have no idea..
nite tym,msg him tell him wad tym he should come e next day in case he forgotten..
on wed,came work at 5..
suddenly saw nazreeen..lol..i was thinking i thought he end at 4..how come he still here??
then he started to talk to me..
at 6+ he went back home..
lucky got azrina..at least i have acompany to went back home ..
chit chat all e way..
i so lucky..tis week,i brought home a lot of food..meltz,twister,shrooms and many more..
lol e people at home was damn excited expeciali my little cute bro..
he very hyper !
i hope e auty at work not mad at me.. i pomise mjyself i will chg my attitude..
sit yesterdayadvise me not to make aunty angry..
i mean i must be hardworking cnt lazy around like what i use to do..
i will show it to u aunty..
and btw,my ex msg me at nite..wanting to ask for patch up..haha
see i wad i guess is correct..
he sure change his mind again..
wating to ask for patch..
but i rejected..

2009-06-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

since few days ago ,u ignored me at work.. and so am i
u didnt reply my msg ,nvr answer my calls .. n it seem u igored me all e way..
yes ..i feel upset but wads e point ?
i upset because u don wan to be fren with me anymore..
i wanna change my attitude to better person.
it seem everybody is ignoring me..aunty sopiah,him and some of my frens..
onli i n azrina is close ..we always share e same problem..
nazreen i realli need u to realise tat wads more with relationship ???
u want us to be back again..
but when i reject u,u gave me cold shoulder..
come on la..we still young right ..
i hate e way u treat me..
and i heard from danial u lazy to layan me animoire..
ok fINe,,!
then don nid to give reason tat u working tats y u cnt reply me..
wad seyy..
if u can do that to me so am i.
but im just giving some cold shoulder to u too so that u relise wad u feel when u being treated in that way,
in sch,i onli can share problem with amir and danial..
they are e onli person who understand about my situation.
they always give me advise etc.
and that kind iof frenship is better than silent relationship..
frenship u can talk share problem and futhermore give some encouragement..
but silent relationship..i can't even sms or call u..
fine ! i will do anythg so that we bth chg together into better person.,
i noe u dont like me when i always threw temper and like scolding2 u..
but i willing to change just because of to save our frenship..
don't because of relationship our frenship is ruined..get it?im sorry im just letting out my feeling so that my heart feel at ease..
so iqa... remeber wad right should do and wad wrong should do to him..

2009-06-07T02:50:00.001-07:00

HELLLO everyone..
sorry for not updating for so damn long..
ohno my blog seem like dead..
currently upset with my ownself
wad i done until most people didnt bother about me.
is it just my imagination that disturbing me or its a reality?
people around like somehow avoiding me ..
they just talk to themsef ..
for example at work..
y some people treat me like im not exist like tat..
y ?
what i done
i have to change my attitude ..
its true wad my ex says..
it just that im stubborn..
i have some ego in myself..
i can change whenever i wan..
but its hard unless i realli2 hope to change to better person..
one day i hope everythg gonna be chg

2009-05-11T08:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday working..
after work .had a big big arguement with nazreen.we fighting.
haiz..
at last i told him i wan to break our frenship.
and he say up to me,no wonder no gal wanna fren with me in sch coz i bla bla bla(secret).he wan me to chg my attitude from bad to good.
i was so frustrated and stop msging him.
today in e noon,he msg me apologise wad he did and wan our frenship be bck to peace again.
i ordy express out my unhappiness and he also did e same too..
now we r back frens again :)
ps:when misunderstanding happen,we should fight for our rights but that doesnt mean u r right.each party have to admit each other mistake before accusing others and must settle as soon as possible .

2009-05-09T22:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday went work..
i didnt recognise who e guy whom wearing blue polo standing at e entrance in the workplace so i just walked in and put my bag in the office.
nana called me say tat y i never greet him.i ask who is him and she say tat our executive manager.she talk to me in a good manner.i was like omg omg,its A MANAGER
s just carry on my work.
sir nathan was talking to tat man.then sir nathan approach me say y i never greet people.
i say because i dunno who is him but he advise me to greet people at work evrytym i walk in.
ok sir was trying many ways to make me smile and laugh.
i told him tat i also had problem in sch.i say that i cnt get along with girl but onli can get along with guys.,
ok i came at 1
at 4,nazreen came. and sir nathan was like ehem ehem.
i gave an excuse to sir say i wan to go toilet.and sir say ALAMAK...EH U wan tissue ?HE TOT I WAN TO CRY and he give me souviette.i just walk away and say nvm nvm.nana wa smiling.
aftr tat,walk in the wokplace... i really don understand my feeling.
i hatehim but at e same time i satill have feeling toward him.
wads wroNg wit me.
sir told me his reason to break with me so funny and he say this was first time he heard a funny reason to break up/
i just smile and say Ya,i also think so funny..wadeveR!
hahaha
at 6..i told sir marlon ''sir i wan to extend 1 hour more ... gt pay rite?
he say yes but if one of th aunty busy then i can.
then after 5 min,it seem tat aunty not buzy
and
sir:afiqah !! bye bye(cute face) u cn go home now 6 already..bye bye muah!
afiqah:huh?sir ..i though i say i wan extend 1 hour more
sir:aunty not buzy mahh...so 2 person already can la
afiqah:sir can la...
sir:today double pay la... hard la
afiqah:(burning) nvm i called sir nathan now
sir:for wad?(scared)
afiqah:i wan ask him can i extend or nt 1 hr
sir:u oso can ask me mah.. but nvm la gt aunty kiaw n tini ordy at kitchen
afiqah :ahya sir !!(sad face)
sir :y u crying?(pass me tissue)
afiqah:no la(took e tissue and put it inside a box)
sir:(smiling and lookiing at my ex)u waiting for someone rite??
afiqah :no lah sir..i ordy broke up with him.he also dun care i go hm or nt
sir:then y u patch up with him last tym?must give me reason first
afiqah:coz coZ.. i like
sir :u stil like him ahh?
afiqah:ahya sir !!!!!!

aunty tini ask me to go her home coz my house nobody .
take my bag and walked off.say bye to ex and other.
went to toilet .
then i purpose pass by e kfc again to see see.
sir standing at e counter smiling and say bye bye.
ok took 67 to cck .go my aunty hs.
very fun n i feeel don wan go back hm.
but my aunty say she going out at 730 morning and no breakfast for me and she suggested me to went back..
i stay there until 1120 nite and the went back hm by lrt.
:)

2009-05-07T17:17:00.000-07:00

hey im back..currently mp hp breaks down..lucky got shu ting.she lent me her hp for temporary.thanks a lot !!
one day,i willl give u treat:)
i broke up with bf recently.just a little misunderstanding.at first yes it feel hurtful but after a long tym,i accep the fact.if i hang out with othr pp i mean my guys fren,i nvr think much abt this and somehow it faded in a flash.tat is why i olwys told my fren who gt relationship problem to hang ot with each other guy frens or any frens to avoid thinking about this.
yesterday kamilah was trying to fight for the rights.he threw out all he temper to me.
to kamilah:i don wan to noe who u wan to go with.just go whoever u wan to go with.its either kiki or me.i don give a fucking care if u were to go full time with kiki.if u were to ask me to talk to kiki first,then just ask her to start e conversation first and somemore the way u trying to say is u trying to side kiki.kiki n me are not enemy just tat we have silent break.tats all.but i not hating her,i olwys wanted to try my best to tok to her..but somehow i olwys can't.

this frenshp problem is olwys running on my mind.danial(classmate) ask me y am i so lonely in sch at times.i just say tat so ever.im not stress but im tired of thinking all this.
its better to hang with ratna n jazelah coz they never give me any problems.
i noe i just an extra but its better for me to hang out with them.
i will olwys start my laughter when guys disturb 2 them i mean joking around in class.
but i still p[refer toking to guys than gals.guys are more understnding and when told them my problem ,they olwys give me solutio in solving the problem.

last few days ,i cabot sch and went to causeway to meet danial n bf.bf lwys tease me and i wa like saying "diam ah" many times.danial was just smiling n laughing.
funni ah wadeva they sk me abt sci thing,i say dunno.coz when i see their sci book ,mostly all covered with physic.LOL
then went back.bf look so scared coz when he at e mall,his sis saw him.he sacred his sis will paotou his mum.
after broke up happen,i feel so sad.and danial console me.and some times he will olwys sent me msg asking abt my stuff n etc and how e sch day going on..

2009-05-02T19:52:00.000-07:00

ps:my feeling for u is blooming bigger as each day pass by..
i love u because one of e reason is that u can acept my weakness and hu i am.
i love u so much .i miss u baby.
u always make me smile and happy but at tym also u make me cry and mad..
haha
this is all called a relationship.
but we have to faced any problem together in order to overcome it and make e relationshp grewq stronger,
U always be my baby

2009-05-02T07:31:00.000-07:00

on thursday,in sch doing per normal stuff..
but just one lesson tat i dont understand which is computer.
we were asked to creat a figure like 3D but i hardly catch up coz of e teacher.not only me,it same goes to the rest of the guys.THe class was LIke chaos.the guys was like shouting and i was mumbling to my frens abt the teacher.thanks to JJ.he helped me a lot in doing.
ok GO back after school with JJ n one chinse handsome guy(dunno wad e name).but he damn handsome..haha.. actualli i dunno him or even not notice he frm my clas until my chi fren say tat he handsome and then i began to recognise.went back with them.they very frenly ,easy get along.
then,meet shu ting at jurong east mrt.the went to imm..shop2 a while then proceed to jurong east libry to read some magazine..
the day quite fun la with laughters at times and thanks for be my listener.:)

on friday,went to work.lucky manager is marlon.and the supervisor was good to me.he keep asking me hows my relationship and im just smiling n smiling.for ur info,i already patch up.almost everybody knows and got one time.
after end works in workplace,nazreen took bugan perfume and pass to me.i say tat it is guys perfume,but nazreen still want me to spray it to my body.tat point of time,my aunty was beside me and sam(supervisor) behind me,i spray it.and diffusion spread all over e place.
sam ask"who spray perfume ahh?"
"BUGan !!!!!"i answered .
my aunty say"ala want go dating rite?"
sam say" its not bugan,its nazreen with afiqah"
the duno wad sam whispered to my aunty and the look at me n nazreen face..
kpo la sam.. he olwys like tat.
on the way back,from bt plaza ,i ,bugan n nazreen walked all e way to bt shopping centre coz bugan wan to deposit money. then after tat,bugan took 961 back while me n nazreen took 184.whn bus came,i was like running for the bus.
drop down the bus,i realised tat wallet not in my pocket.
i was shocked but still cn laugh while my bF look so damn scared and pity me..
from bukit panjang lake opp thr..we ran as fast as we can to bp interchange and ask e driver but dispointing respon;(
my bf pity me..n i look a bit moody feel like crying.it contains ic,posb card and $10 notes tat mum has just give me to top up my ezlink..
lucky my ez link is with me now if nt i have to use adult fares to support my transportation.
haiz..wad over is over..i no money to buy ic and posB card:(
haiz
i stil haven report .this week bf wiill acompany me to police station and report for the loss.

ok today,went out with bf to plaza.
we hand around ,went harvery norman a hile and go hand outside bpp.
after tat,he sent me back to bustop.

2009-04-29T06:21:00.000-07:00

today feeling sad,,
i coming sch early but becoz of frens i never go in class on time.
this shows how important frens for me
i waited at e foyer alone..
waiting n waiting for ratna and jaziela but end up they went class first
coz i wanna wait for kamilah
waiting so damn long until i went outside school seraching for her .
at last she say she still in e bus..
haiz..
then went back sit at foyer
hafizul called me to come inside e theathre for talks
ok went in..
but i felt boring..beside me is karyan
and i still waiting for kamilah
we msg2 she say she paisey went inside e theathre coz gt so many ppl
so at last she waited at e foyer n i ordy say to her to wait and don go anywhr
after e talk,i began searching for her..
guess where she go?
she say she went off
like wad sia
i waiting for her and she just off like tat??
ahya,
so sad
and im moody e whole day
(in lab)
hafizul:hai fiqa,how r u?
me:sad face:not fine
hafizul:not fine?ya can see ur face is not fine

jj is tring some ways to entertain me but failed
jj:u today look emo yesterday oso emo..y ah?
me:nothing la..:(
me:y?if nt,normally i laugh all day long rite
jj:ya larr..u laugh ah e tym goes very fast sia..den u like this,e tym so slow sia
me:smile
i damn quiet and just looking at people around in e lab..looking at frens and teachers
ameer and danial ask me wad happen and y im quiet but i just ignored and never respon.
i wan my happy feeling to come back again.i appreciate all my frens that concern abt me and thanks for it.

2009-04-28T16:59:00.000-07:00

wake up at 5+..coz got motivational talk at headquarter..and muust report sch at 8
went with kar yan.when we reached there,i saw jj talking to mdm ho
jj told me that it was postponed to another day..
"teacher,alamak make me tired onli wake up early"
mdm ho say"wad alamak..ur lesson still start at 8 wad today"
lol.
first working at workshop..study about how to use machine..make it shining..and it was so exciting..
i lovedoing e machine because i sudenly fell in love into it.
at first the piee of block look rough and dull but after polishng using e machine it look so shining..
this make me admird e work
since ameer n danial my group,ameer keep asking wad happened to me n kiki.
ameer:tell me ah wad happened,we all like sibling seyy..like one famili
me:nothing la
ameer:eee..i wan to say bad word to u sia
me:wad la!!i say nothing rite
ameer:haiz..shre ur problem to me ah..look ur face i noe u gt proble
danail:ya la
me:ala later then i tel u ah
ameer:later when
me:later ah..
i say nothing but he say he just wann to listen to my problem.so at last i just ignored him
after sch,went to amk hub wit kamilah..shop2 awhile and she shares me about problems.
after tat,trained back.kamilah went to clem,inti town to meet her fren while i going jp to meet sh ting.
i was so damn tired .slept in train.
reached woodland.i awake ,and suddenly ameer n danial appear infront me.
ahhaa
its dam dunny..danial say"wahh!ur eyes blue colour turn to red sia"
haha..i just smiling
ok kamilah drop at jurong east..
ameer n danial was fooling aroud with me since i forget when to change mrt,,
and they laugh2..
n e funny part is my bag suddenly broke in e mrt
ok going to jp ,in e train with ameer n danal.
they look so concern and i told them my problem with kiki
ameer say''iok like this(*thinking)if u really wan to be fren with kiki back,u should approach her n tok..but if u dun care anymore nad she nvr entertain me,just dun care la "
i look sad when i talking and they console me..
haha
den danial saw my bag torn..funny la i was damn malu
haha

2009-04-25T06:58:00.000-07:00

today i felt stress.
stress at home.i'll not gonna talk about it.

to nazreen:though i ignored u several times or evn scold u many time,u still can tolerate me and never failed to win me back.
its not that i hate u or what,its because i wan u t changed into a better person.
thankfully,i seen changes in u.
it seems that my feeling for u started to bloom again.
can't imagine my feeling tat tym was so hatred coz of ur attitude towards me.
im glad to see e changes in u.
u are a guy that never give up easily.
i still remember e harsh msg tat i sent to u.
but,ur attitude makes me admire towards u.
but i wil wait until the right time to tell u my true feeling.
actualli i thought u will lose hope in me coz i reject u many time but indeed u didnt.
u try ur best in many ways to win me back.
im so impressed in ur attitude.
and when i see u begging me infront of my eyes,i could see tears in ur eyes as though u don't want to lose me.
and i also remeber the tym u bougt for me choc but when i reject it,i could see e sadness in your eyes.
but im so proud in u becoz never give up.
i love u

2009-04-24T05:40:00.000-07:00

it been few days i never blog..
ok
i starting to have frenship problem now..
since new gal just stepped in to our clas,kiki started to avoid me seyy..
she all time stick to tat gal..
haiz..
ok wateva la ehk
furthermore they suit to be together..
kiki just broke up with danial..
so i trying my best to give some encouragement to danial..haha
cool !
last few days,met up with ex bf,danial n frens at bugis..
ahha
my ex was cute..
while dania; was like shy shy to me..
haha
when first saw him,he cover his wholeface with his jacket..
haha
cute reaction..
well..he handsome..
so went back with them taking 960..
i sat wth ex..he talkative la..
so i just like disturbing him keep repeating "huh?hUh?"
i was just pretending haha
funny la..
it seem he can tolerate me
and also i also keep disturbing him in msg but he can tolerate my nonsense..
i told kiki tat day tat danial look so handsome..
then she like so jealous like tat and told danial.
wad seyy..
just praise also cnt
yesterday danial called me
bla bla bla tok all e way
danial like side on me haha
he say to kiki tat its nt wrong wad if afiqah wan to praise him
danial say if i have any problem or need help,just contact him
just now im expressing my unhappiness about kiki like ignoring me to danial
den danial reply ala don worry,kalau die taknak layan u,u still have naz n me btol tk?
it means tat not to worry if she ignores me,i till have him n naz..true?
haha
ok back to skooling time,skool was ok fun
but mostly i slept in class haha
yes at first i don understand wad a single thing they say bcoz all about dnt stuff
haha
yesterday cabot class coz tired and weak
today morning teacher ask
mdm ho:y u never cabot yesterday after break?
me:ala..stomach pain ah
jj(chi guy): (smiling)..teacher give her chance ah
me:ok next tym i never cabot k
mdm ho: jj u dun kpo can...
me:smiling n laughing

ok ameer was gerek ah.at first yes i find him irritating
but once noe him well,was quite fun
ok the after tat,he did makes a jokes during practical at workshop just nw..
durthermoe,im e onli gal in my group coz kamilah went back
firstly,i thought i feel weird coz im e onli gal ..
lucky got jj n ameer .they never failed make me smile or laughed
sure they have smething stupid to show me
haha
ok after sch,took 71 with kai yan,ratna,jesiila
on e seat beside me..
aidil sat there
his face is identical like danial i mea e kids central danial e hip hop dance tat 1.i never tok to him b4..so i try to brave myself n speak up
me:aidil!
aidil:(Turn look at me)
me:u aidil rite?
aidil:ya
me:wad ur age?
aidil:18 ,y?
me:no..just asking
me:ur face looki like danial e kid central one
aidil:hmm..no idea
me:ala e hip hop dance tat 1
aidil:oh tat fucker?
me:haha..u both look alike.is both of u cuzzins?
aidil:no..

then drop at yio chu kang..take train
i was standing with my fren in the middle of e train..while kiki,ain and e guys all sanding at last cabin
i was shock la kn..
suddenly reach khatib,when i look out e door..aidil from far smiling n waving at me
i wave back
i was like OMG oMg..
he so cute..

2009-04-20T01:59:00.000-07:00

i just came back from, sch..

just now went sch.. e guys are super late..class start at 9 but they came at 9+ and some 10+.lucky 1st lesson is PE lesson,,

actualli got teambuilding activities it so

lame for me la

then at 11.30,had break time until 1

went outside sch and eat..

back to class at 1,my class is extremely full of laughter and jokes..

because the guys like to disturb2 kiki.

they always called"kiki!kiki!"

lol..its funny

and tats y when heard guy kol like tat,i will laugh n laugh

well everybody knew i enjoy laughing..

like crazy laughing ah..

even im bored just nw ..

haiz well laughing is best medicine forme to free from stress.

afte class,amir shake kiki hand follow by my hand.

hafizo also did e same..

they like say "ok now we frens"

ok back to yesterday,after work

nazreen ask me to wait for him

so waiting n waiting

otw back he like giving me slow talk ah like wanting to patch with me back

but my heart still say no n i just being open to him

den he say he bought kinder bueno for me

bu i say nvm n just keep it

den he like feel so sad and just gave me card

went home i read e card

guess wad?

ahah secret

cnt tell

aniwae ite life is indeed fun and enjoyable once u happy with the environment ,everytg u do will be fine and u will feel happy all day..

trust me..theres nothing tat make m happy ..

it just tat when u make a person hppy,u will feel happy too

a smile given to somebody is indeed like a rose blooming

2009-04-16T18:42:00.000-07:00

yesterday after sch,went to dhoby ghaut there..
shop2 a while at there den trained back..
kiki went back hm
i n kamilah trained back.lol last min we went to lot1 to shop2 a while
but no money liao just window shopping
back to hm.nobody at hm
after few hours famili members went back hm.im asking money to utter my uniform.then i being scolded all that.wad sin have i done?wad wrg i do?i olwys thin like tat?
i cry until one of my eyes are swollen n bcoz of tat i never attend sch today.haiz..
father say also say he wan to quit me from sch..
say that my ezlink finish so fast..
wad sia
i so sad eyy he say like tat
he ask me to go hm straight after sch.
i dun like be at hm after sch coz gt my BRO.he's idiot and always find fault at me.
den ltr hit2 me.den i told my parents tats e reason i dun like to be at hm after sch.
but they seem nt care me at all ...
they just me to listen to them.
they just dun understand me.. and wad i suffering?
i sure u all be in pain rite when someone find fault wit u n hit u.
haiz..
so sad. n i miss e class today.i miss my class jokes.tats e onli cure for me to free from stress

2009-04-16T04:43:00.000-07:00

today came sch with frens..
lesson star 9+
but kiki say its late already so from amk mrt station we took taxi..
they sponsor..
then when reached sch,we dunno whr to go coz theres so little people there.
then after a while two mly guys following us .they from same course as us but i haven know dem yet.then one group of mly guys from our course arrive.we go up n fllow them.then went to our classroom.
we dunno each other yet so teacher say
mdm ho:so u all haven noe each other yet right?so wanna form a group like getting noe each other
chi guy:let we all choose our own team ah
mdm ho:no la i tink its better i choose for u all den we swap to another group back
mly guys:OK!

then mdm ho split us up
haha this part was fun.getting to noe each other.
the guys so sporting seyy..we easy get along unlike cdss guy
we exchange name and asking about each other thing..
me:hey u all taking N or O?
all members :N
me:(blushing) i guess im e onli odd.i from olevel tapi fail
amir:macam mane boleh fail?
me:ala da takdir.
wah the all so fun...i get to noe aidi,niran ,amir but the rest haven yet
then during e discussion ,i laugh coz like so funny e guy reaction when they ask smtg.
i noticed amir was staring at me.but he just smiling
at 11.30 ,we been released but we suppose to come back class at 1
so we have long break. my fren n i ate at canteen.
after tat,went outside campus smoke.i ain't a smoker anyway.
ok like 12+ walk back to campus.our classmate was sitting outside campus.they gather together.,
i like aidi coz he damn funny.at fist thought,i though he so sombong but its actualli e opp.he super frenli
ok den we go toilet.
i so surprise when i open the cubical door,i saw anis.pri schmate dunno her quite well.
then she tok to me
me:hi
anis:hi (shake hands)
me:bla bla bla
anis:bla bla bla
anis:ehk u noe amir?from ur course?
me:ya.y?
anis:he oso frm pioneer pri
me:(shock reacTION) really??
anis:ya.he e naughtiest guy
me:omg!! wad a coincidence
ok fyi,amir was so called naughty guy..he from class 4A while i class 4B
i didnt believe tat was amir.BUt tats e fact.!
lol wad a coincidence.i also did saw arif just nw in sch.
den at 1 ,went to com lab.tmdm ho just give a tlk.
the gusy was making jokes about kiki.
i was sitting beside kik so i just smile ,laugh den turn to look at e guys.
amir stare at me n smile..then i heard he look at me n talk to his fwen"hey she smiling ah"
lol.few min ltr class end,was boring..
quite fun u noe!! coz e gusy so funny n cute too:0

2009-04-15T04:04:00.001-07:00

today i ,kiki,kamilah suppose to come sch b4 9.today we have activities conducted
we trained to amk.
b4 coming sch,went to CHEERS to buy breakfast.
i have hotdog pie for breakfast..its good to have breakfast before coming sch..
so that we nt gonna feel sleepy like yesterday..
n yes.once reached sch,we though we gonna be late coz evrybody has already assemble at e foyer and some were looking at us..
LOL
wwe took our attendance and change our attire.
afetr tat,instructor brought us to street soccer ,
we were given lecture and motivation..
then,went to field.thought of playing games but most student requested to play games at the hall instead of field..
so we play one games at e field den go to hall.
this part was damn fun...
i non stop laughing with the guys reaction.
we so called quite sporting !
i fid tat e malay student more sporting unlike e chinese.
they were jut like so unparticated and not supportive.
we play a lot of games...was realli 2 fun.
i have a combined class semi conductor technology n medical manufaturing tchnology..
most of e guys are damn handsome and joker too.,.
ok after tat,i,kiki n kamilah went to northpoint.they bought for me frenship band,n we wears the same color on our legs.
after tat,kik went back..
i n kamilah trained back
me:i feel i tired but i don wan to go hm coz so boring
kamilah:where u wan go?
me:go bpp?how wan?
kamilah:(thinking)hmm..ok
me:yeah ! yeah !(hapi)
den at thr,we walk2 around..
and again she spent her money bought a large fries and share with me
after tat,we lepak outside bpp
we talked a lot of stuff...expecially abt e events in our sch..
we were laughing n laughing..
ok tats all for nw:)

2009-04-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

today went otw with fren went back hm,theres one guy chasing me..
me:(shock reaction)
boy:hey my fren wan ur no?
me:hu?
boy:my fwen .he say he wan to make fwen with u
me:haha..i dunno wad to say la
boy:(waiting)
me:let him come here..i have to see him first
boy:(take out his hp camera album n show me)
me:(suddenly theres one guy sitting at one shelter called me to approach him)..(thinking)hmm..ahh i don wan ah sori eh
boy:like say ala make fren onli can la..
me:don wan la..(den go n approach e guy hu call me)
it was my ex fren. shafiq
shafiq:hey u from chestnut rite
me:yar
shafiq:u farhan ex rite?
me:yar
shafiq:u noe me or nt?
me:i noe..u shafiq rite..ala i always saw u but u nvr even tok sombong seyy
shafiq:then now i toking to u wad..
me:ah yelah( walk away)
shafiq:bye!
me:bye

2009-04-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

u came to my life once
we indeed like happy couple
the first moment was sweet
but a clash broke in a sudden
u leave me without a very satisfaction reason
i cried in silent as if u dun even care my feeling
as time passed by,u appear again
you ask for patch up
its not as easy for me to accept someone who has broke my heart
and indeed u felt heartbroken?
why?when u leave me,you dun even care my feeling
now u are asking for patch up
i has made mind i gonna rejected
he hardxly accepted
but after a long consolment,u ok with it
i thought everything gonna through smoothly after that
you still can ask ur danial to console me
and because of this,i starting to talk like nt gd manner to danial
futhermore,i also dun wan to trouble danial
NO,i can't
i already listen to my heart and it says no
please i not kidding,im serious
can u understand me
please leave me alone

2009-04-13T01:17:00.000-07:00

hey i tink the chances to accept him is very low..
how?
and at the same time i care about his feeling too.,.
ohh what should i do??
im realli stuck
he has broken my heart and my heart is already broke..
obviously if u ask back,its hard for me to accept.im serious
omg omg..
please let this problem settle as fast as can..
but i dunno ..
i hope he respect my decision..plssss.

2009-04-11T01:22:00.000-07:00

last nite,spent time msging my ex.
ok its gd becoz i trying to expressing out my unhappy feeling or wadeva in ma heart to him
i trying to be open to him..
haiz..
itook up one phrases on e msg he sent to me..actualli its long but lazy to type all here it goes like this.
i miss u noe n when u work with me u juz walk away like tat never say goodbye i also hurt u noe.
so i m trying to fight for my right coz he e 1 hu make m sad first,,,so i respon him back in a gd manner
now he waiting for me..he say tat he willing to change his attitude
i just need tym..
its good that both of us has forgive each other mistake..
i actualli dunno who to trust nw..
its complicated.
well one day i will reveal wad will hapen next..
2mrw i gonna work with him and theres one guy is working there too..his name zahir ..my colledgue say he actualli an ex worker there.his sis is cdian and is my god sis.
his mum treat me like god daughter.but i have not see him before.

2009-04-10T05:10:00.000-07:00

currently upset..
who u tink u are??
u treat me like punching bag..
u nt happy with smtg den y should i be ur victim..
im tired of this..
was very dispointed after being slap hard by u idiot.
while i noe i nvr do any wrong..
well onli god knows my feeling rite now..
its totally mixed sad,dispaointed
my lip is swollen and my cheeks is pain. mum took medication for me..
mum say''u too soft hearted some more u r a gal,he a guy"
i as so frustated..
my feeling is back to sad today..
it realli painful..
ur harsh word and ur hand that always hit on me..
may god give some ritribution of wad u did to me one day..
ur attitude are so childish aND immatured

story begin

2009-04-08T21:48:00.002-07:00

yeterday went back to cdss to get my testi n certificate.
went with shu ting n ying zi,,
after taking my results,i went outside toilet..
im waiting to see my lower sec frens..
ying zi and shu ting looks unhappy..
i dunno y?
maybe bcoz they dunno them.
i realli miss my frens there seyy..
well i treat them like younger sis..
when nabila saw me,she immediately hug me..
it been so long time since i seen them..
after that walk around,the security there say that the rules has changed.
what to do?
we can't eat at canteen and not allowed to loitering around the school..
but we were fortunate enough.the old security guard let us eat..
mr han nearly stop us..
so luckyy
ok then in the noon,set off to jb
but some stuff at there..
i bough school stuff.
like school bags and school shoes.
it looks nice and cost cheaper.
in spore,the bag may cost $39.but at there it just sold Rm25.
i don't care what the cost.whats is important it looks nice and comfortable to use.
at around 9,i received msg from ex bf.
then he called me but i can't pick it up as i was still in jb.
so i decide to give him msg ''im sorry,i buzy now.if u wan to called,call me tomorow or today late night arnd 12..
he approve..
then went back home arnd 11+,
do cleaning at my room..
after that i waited and waited.
at around 12+ still haven't received any call from him so i decided to sleep.
today morning wake up,saw one missed call.
it was him.
guess what tme he called?
2+ morning..
lol sorry,i was asleep in wonderland..
school will e starting next mon.last min then i will do my packing..haha
but excited:)

2009-04-08T21:48:00.000-07:00

yesterday went outing with shu ting n yingzi..

so firstly,i met yingzi at bustop..took 960 leads to bugis.

in the bus,i received call from annonymous user.it was my ex.

lol!

at first im surprise .ok after that he did msg me..that he wanna patch with me back..

haha

when we reched bugis,theres many people there..met shu ting there

weekdays also gt so many people.

beside bugis there is a new shopping complex .

went walk there and looking around.there's not so much shop coz some of the shop are under renovate.

as for me i onli broght little money so i just wash my eyes and just window shopping.

we went see a lot of shops .

hungry time,we ate mcdonald..

hmm,after a tiring day,ying zi went back home first while i n shu ting went to bugis library n relax there.we read some magazines.it was so relaxing,,

then after,we took train to commonwealth.in the mrt,i received msg again from ex.lOL

ok..i was like thinking wad am i going to reply..

so i decided sent him say that i can onli accept him as my buddy.

but he still like begging me......

at last i sent tis to him''hard to get..it takes time''

is it because of that day incident made him change his mind??

or is it coincidence it also hapen to me too?

i do stil has feeling towards him since that incident that day..but i hardly confess my feeling to him.

i still has to think twice before saying anything to him.

whats important is that make sure that both party will not get hurt.

today i did receive a call from him but i didn't pick it up.

do i hve to accept him/?

yes?? or no??

for tis tym,my answer is obviously no.

it takes time.

i listen to my heart....one day,its will reveals the true.

next mon my school will be starting.yahOO!!

i cnt wait to see my frens.

ite is e place for me to enjoy,have fun but stdy too..

and my frens are so gereK!(fun)

i currently upset with my manager coz of my slary.argh!drop the topic.it will make me stress if i talk about it..

2009-04-06T23:32:00.000-07:00

im feeling bored today..
i think i get my salary today but i still haven't check it..
i knew it so less coz i work onli few days in a week..
haiz..
theresmany things that i wanted to buy but my money its not enough..
well,i curently missing somebody..
but secret i won 't tel u who is it..
i really fel sad u noe..
my manager put me doing base alone this sunday..
how can it be?
i msg sir''sir!why u put me base alone?i cannot do alone la"
he reply ''u doing with yenling la''
hopefully its true if nt i feel so suffering seyy,,
but no matter wad..
i like on sunday coz the delivery worker working on that day all best2 la seyy..
i still so worry though..
haiz
god..help me..

yo

2009-04-05T09:14:00.000-07:00

i just cum back from work..haha still wearing my uniform...
today is a good day i guess in work..
1st tym,u noe !
i hapi..
today i n bugan working in kitchen. it been a long tym i do base with him seyy...
arnd 3 mths?
ya !!
n e cashier is azrina n nazreen(ex).
they both like cat n dog seyy..olwys quarel2..
i today very hyper..olwys laugh here laugh there.
even to my ex nazreen oso i laugh2 ..
den he enjoy smiling2 at me..
nana order n scream2 like tat..tats wad she is.
after tat,i stress.
i do work with my down face..
den harmeen,the delivery boy stand beside me..
say''y?y u so stress..?
i say'' of course la..haiz..
he say''relax ar do work relax..
haha
den he ask me''sch gonna open so u excited rite?''
i reply'' oh of course(like ang mo speaking)
haha
i saw my ex looking like tat at us..
yeah ..
den at end work,my ex askme''u go hm with hu?''
i say''i go hm with everybdy''
haha
just purposely irritate him
then i n azrina went toilet..
she go n change clothes..
after tat went back to kfc to wait for the guys..
but u guess wad e guys did?
the guys take their bag and quickly wlak to another direction..
then they walk faster..so at l;ast girls behind guys infront,,,
suddenly when i n azrina was toking2,they hide at one places..
hahaha
its funny..
they like wan to play hide and seek..
i n azrina jus laugh n laugh
we proceed to 7elevn nearby to change money .i treat her drinks.
so aftr tat,went t bustop.
i thought the guys already took the bus,den we sat dwn at the bustop..
suddenly i saw bugan body behind the poster at the bustop,,follow by nazreen(ex) body..they hide2 den in a flash appear dunno from whre?hahaha
i just laugh laugh laugh..
i n azrina sit one corner while nazreen n bugn sit anthr corner but same bench,,
haha.. bugan ask me''afiqah,u take wad bus ah?''
i say ''970''
but he cnt hear properly..
azrina say it for me..but in a funny manner..
so i laugh again..
bugan bus came n bugan went off.,.
left nazreen sitting alone..
then 171 bus came..nazreen took it..
i say hey,wait ah,take 970 ..
he say'' nvm la..come take ith me..''
i say ''take 970 la''
then he ordy went up the bus..
i say to azrina''jom ah azrina let take with him''
azrina say ala nvm la the door wanted to close ordy..
bt when i see,the door still open..behind tat 171 is 184 bus..then i n her stand up n took the bus..
i laugh2 again..
she say''ala just nw cn take 171 ''
i say''just nw i ordy say cn take,but u dun wan''
haha.
den in bus laugh2..
go dwn the bus laugh2 again.
then lead to fjar as she wan to top up her p8 card..
then went mcd awhile.
nazreen kol mp hp.say he wan mit me..
i ask him go fajar mcd.but he dun wan ..
so after tat hang de phone..
well,today,i dunno i very tat hyper la..
starting ordy work,i laugh2
haha..

.

2009-04-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

today i came work..
the first person i saw from far distance is nazreen.he saw me den immediately went to office..
i came office and put my bag on 1 corner..
i dunno la y hard for me to smile to him..
today,nazreen,azrina,nana n bugan will b goingto kallang to for course..
gd luck then..
today working seems quite well..
coz manager is sir marlon..
if he take care,everythg will be perfectly done.,
hmm...but the way he talk to me ly smtym i fear of him too..
i dunno la if he just pretending to be strict ..but he's ok...
i going back with jesica..we tok2 on e way back..
congrats to her coz she pass her A levels and get into NTU..
i can see how nervous is she few days before getting results..but at last she get wad she wnted,.,,
today sam(supervisor) is very good to me...he today gd mood,,
last tym he scold2 me but today he so kind to me seyy..
yeah guys are easy to cool down.
today gt delievery bo which i treat lyk my buddy..its better whenhe's around..
coz he will tok2 to me..
n me is just smiling n smiling instead of talking,,
tats AFIQAh..a gurl who more to smiling than talking...
haha
sir marlon say''hey,u cnt work on sun onli coz u haven ask permission frm sir nathan yet?''
i was like" huh,i ordy ask wad last tym,he say ok.".
but sir marlon say tat i must get approve from sir nathan first,,
after work,i msg sir say that i gonna work on sunday onli,,den he reply who am i?den after he nvr respon..
nvm la..maybe he kinda busy..at least i ordy inform him e info..
ok la gdnite..

LeTs bEgINs !!

2009-04-01T02:42:00.000-07:00

it been a long tym im blogging...
hmm..
wad should i start first ehk..
oh ya...will shares abt my job..
i starting to hate my job..
well,it seems tat in order for me to sucess in e job,i have to love it first..
but the situation made me hate it instead..
the staff there are so action..
like wad u noe!
they though e kfc is their own home like tat..
last sun,i went work as per normal..
nazreen(ex) n bugan working on that day too..
at first working,its was not fun as before..
but life have to go on..
got one tym,whip potato finish .manager ask me to make whip potato..but i dunno..
so i ask one delivery boy name harmeen''abang,abang tau uat whip poatato tak?''
i guess i disturbing him coz he was like packing ata tat tym..haha
but he reply''tau,tau''
then i ask him to teach me...
now i learn how to make whip potato ordy..
yen ling came by and ike tutor us a bit,.,,
i was like laughing n laughing coz their reaction is lyk funny..for e.g
harmeen say''like tis rite(demonstrating)"
yenling say''no luh,not like tis''
then harmeen say''correct wad''
then they both like argue bit la...like funni u noe!
hahaha
then doing closing,aunty sofia nag n nag..
she onli noe how to nag...
she ask me''y u nvr do closing earlier??dun give me excuses buzy with customer just nw ah''
correct wad...just nw was so busy with customer tats y cnt do closing..
wad onli she..
my aunty oso say to me''got a lot of customer how to do closing??''
haiz..
nvm la old people like tat mah..onli noe how to nag..
hmm aftr went home with my aunty after the base checked by sir marlon..
i taking cik aziz teksi...with my aunty too..leads to my grandma hs.
on the way,bugan call my hp asking where am i..
i say im in teksi..
then he sae''nazreen ask u to wait for him at bustop''
but too bad,,i ordy go...
i cnt wait for july to come soo i will quit tis job..its fucking irritating seyy the people

hie

2009-03-26T20:30:00.000-07:00

yesterdae nite danial msging me..
we msg2 asking abt each other stuff..
ill treat him as my good fren..
hope he last long with his gf..yeah...
im nt feeling well since yesterday nite..
i gt flu,dry throat ..
no wonder my father ask me''wad hapen to u,wan to go doctor ah?y ur face like tat''
i look so weak ..
well drop e topic..
today morning wke up n i saw 1 msg..from taufiq..
haiz..y muz he distract me...
danial once tell me if taufiq disturbing or irritate me,inform him
aha..oke..
so caring of him...

hi

2009-03-26T02:08:00.000-07:00

im fat im fat im fat..
i wann to lose weight..
many ppl says it and i realise it too..
but how?
wad should i do?
according to my weight rooster,i need to lose 15 kg
how?
ok live in a healthy balanced diet..
no junk food,no oily food,,
only can eat oily food once or twice a weeek
yeah
i prove it..
i tink i can do it..
im cnt wait sch opening on 13 april.
pls come soon..

hi

2009-03-24T18:40:00.000-07:00

hey frnd,i ordy broke up with bf!
guess hows my feeling?
sad or happy?
haha
actualli i in normal mode..
ok la tel u e truth at first yes la i feeling sad..
but nw no more..
i accept and respect his choice..
danial told me actualli his mum dun let him to be in a relationship..
its ok..
well,i believe in frenship than relationship..
yesterday tok on e phone with danial..
he's quite understand to tok to,,
and he oso a gentle person..
he so better for me to tok to than toking to taufiq..
thanks to danial for like being my listener..
and i oso did ask him hows his relationship and bla bla bla.
and he's older than my ex tat 1..
but younger by me by one year,,
i noe my fwen most thinking y i olwys can get along with e younge one rite?
coz they are easy for me to communicate..
and im easy going with dem..
and yeah!i agree to him too he say fwenship come first den relationship..
:)

hi

2009-03-22T22:07:00.000-07:00

im feeling so hungry now..haven eaten since just nw morning..
later i going to fajar mcd to eat..
im currently sad actually coz have problem with bf..
i can be understanding ..
his hp had been confiscated..how am we be comunicating..
and i olwys taufiq to help me..
taufiq is his bestfren..
i regarding taufiq as fwen onli ok..
taufiq sent to me tat he have feeling for me..
no!!
i love my boyfren n im loyal to him..
i nt easily melt by other ppl coz i ordy taken..
but nw im so sad..tat bf is somekind like complicated a bit..his mum has found out abt us..i dunno how..
n he oso cancel our plan outing last min..
i have e reason y i mad..
but when i discover wad e reason,im understand..
i hope our relationship getting well soon..
i realli hope tis..
pls god,do give some happiness to him coz tis few days olwys some nt gd thing happen to him..
i n him having e same situation..its like miracle..
we both is being scolded on e same day during work..
we work morning but i work at nite..
he being scolded by big manager while i being scolded by supervisor..
my father scold me bcoz of contacting guy(bf) and his mum scold him coz contacting gal(gf)
how cum same ah??
hahaha
its coincidence ..
i hope our relationship will be back to normal soon:)

hi

2009-03-21T09:53:00.000-07:00

today,im realli not in e mood..
i felt like crying ..
i came work per normal..b4 cuming,i feel relieved a bit coz my partner is an aunty so i guess it will be a burden for me,,
when i step in,i saw my bf.he just ended his work..he was like running awy from me..
i chase him and ask y?he say nothing..well.,after tat i went to my workplace..
suddenly aunty never cam last min..
and i just forund out sooner tat aunty is purposely dun wan cum coz she wan to sabotage me..
i heard from bf..
argh!!
i was so fed up..i look unhappy during work..
lucky gt delivery boy there tat i use to tok to.. at least have somebody to tok to..
sadly,during doing closing up,supervisor scold me angrily..he like blaming me tats i was e 1 which make aunty dun wan cum..wad sia?y me?
i did all my work properly..aunty just do washing up..and u said i was like nvr do properly!!
aunty sofia say..aunty dun like work with me coz ltr she tired..she rather like to work with my aunt..
i like wth!
y e crew all so evil to me??
after work,bf msg me..but i say i not in e mood..he kol my hp..but i cnt pick up coz hp gt speaker problem..cnt hear properly...
soon when i went back hm,we tok..
today he oso being scolded but by sir nathan..so pity of him..no wonder he ran away frm me just nw after he ended work.. we tok n tok .at least tat can cool me down

manager look so happy like tat coz today i doing alone..
suprvisor knows how to scold n scold..
then he?he tink he nvr do any mistake uh?
i was so angry coz
just now during work,he onli do a bit thing..then he somemore still can make his own melts with more cheese and chicken meat.. wtf!
i feel like complaining to manager sia..
who is he to have e right to take food for free..
nothing is free ok..
even mam also..
when i take twister home after work ends
on last few weeks,she scold me.
i thought the leftover can bring hm??
wad sia...
everything i did not right..
argh!!
nevermind one day u all get e retribution..
im waiting for tat day..
if any of u i mean mam,sam(supervisor) and nana being scolded by sir nathan infront of me,i will sure be e happiest person..
u all has made me suffer during work..
i am human not a robot ok..
a human with a small heart which has feeling too..
i waiting....
im sure u all will suffer too..
nevermind today is ur day.. so let u all be happy first..

good day peope !

2009-03-20T21:52:00.000-07:00

let me shared about wad happened yesterday night..

i n my bf tok on e phone at nite using my home phone...we chit chat and laugh laugh..

he so lovely..

everyday sure he sing a song for me..

coz i told him earlier tat he have to sing for me before i going sleep..

haha

seems he respected me..

then aftr tat,hand down e call..

within a second,he called my hp..

he ask me whether i knew anybody from chestnut by e name of nazrul..

i was like thinking..who ehk?who ehk?

soon after a while,i reconised already who is him..

i wan to ask y but amtg distracting our conversation..my house is like a playground..its damn noisy with kids running around..

then he hang down e call..

i msg him ans ask y?and is it his bro?

he reply yes..

i was unbelievable..

is tat coincidence?all tis tym,he never told me before tat his bro was from chestnut..

ok ..tats fine then..

after tat my hp create probelm.it started to lagged..gosh !!

how am i have to contact all my fwens..include my colledgue and ite frens..

i began searching for my old phone..

i searched everywhere without fail..even though the clck shows 2+am

at last i found it..

its was inside my parents wardrobe..

but haiz..no charger?battery was low..

i never give up..i searched everywhere in the kitchen cabinet...

i was so surprised tat e charger was actualli hidden in one of big plastic bad under the fish tanks..

hahas..

unbeliveable..

yesterdae nite,i just check my account..

my salary has transffered..

i cant believe tat i get tat much coz i onli work 2 days in a week last few week..

my bf not happy and say why not fair??

he work alot of days but he onli get so liitle..

he say maybe the manager like me tats y i get alot..

i say no luhh.its e same..

he then realised tat my salary per hour is different than him..

no wonder i get more even i work onli so little days..

well to my frens,i now using back my old hp,so if u guys wanna msg,don forget to put ur name on the last sentence so i knew..

coz i lost all my contacts..

thanks..

hai readers

2009-03-20T03:22:00.001-07:00

today was damn boring for me..

in the noon,bf msg say tat he might cancel our outing bcoz he afraid my father will scold me later..

i said to him that i going out with anybody i only depends on my own pocket money..

i have my own money to supoort my own spending..

well u noe wad..tat annoying sista go n tell everybody in ma hs about my personal thingy..

is she kpo??

yes she is...

she always been like tat..

olwys be third person in my relationship..

like wad seyy...

i cry in loneliness coz she olwys treat me like tis...

y must she distract me??

pls mind ur own bussiness can??

i just letting out my feeling through writing this blog..

well,i was so damn sad seyy...

when is e day i become happy like before..at home,it seem nobody cares abt me..everybody mind their won bussiness..even when i ask small mount of money to go shop from parent,they dun wan give..but if my bro ask,they sure give..

im so sad.

when i expressing out my unhappiness to my parents,i was just like talking to myself ..nobody cares wad im toking..

they just watch tv and i was like talking to the wall...

2009-03-19T02:57:00.000-07:00

today,wake up in e morning..then found out tat i have i new message in ma hp..it was my bf..we smsing..today,i have to come work but last min,suhaidah replacing me..

then talk on e phone with bf,always got distraction while we talking..tats kpo sista keep distract when im talking with him..we talking about our plan outing..tat manager split us up..he never let us work together on tis week..so sad :(

however,we still contacting each other daily.. haha,,but its not as good as seeing each other.i prefer seeing each other than talking n messaging..

coz i noe...if he see me face to face,he will talk a lot..but when comes to talk to talk on e phone,he not so much talking...

ok la i have to go now..soon i write my blog again aite ..:)

hello

2009-03-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

e phone ringtone wake me up in e morning....
it was my bf calling..
i pick up the call and he ask how am i n bla bla bla..
he was on the weay to bbq party..
its seems he have fun...
i having flu..sobx2
when i talk to him,i non stop sneezing.. aaahchoo!
then in e noon,went out with xueli n shu ting..
im sorri if i quiet at tym,its not in purpose..
but my mouth its like being glued..haha..
so tired mah..
even watch movie,i slip juz nw..
but overall we hav fun though..
i enjoyed everything..
well,hope to see u girls again..
bye..
gdnite..

hi

2009-03-14T23:29:00.001-07:00

yesterday,my work should be starting at 5..
at 2.30,nazreen call me..he ask me to come at 4..
coz he end at 4 and his plan is to work wit me until 6 at base
when i came to kfc,he look so moody..
like somehow im not welcoming by him..
hiaz..
i put my bag in the office..
suddenly nazreen order somethg food so i serve it to him...
i do not notice that marlon is watching at my reaction towards him h esay''afiqah,u look at him so diffrent ahh...i say''no la anyhow only,we just fwen la''
then nazreen came inside the office and i ask permission that he wan to work at base with afiqah..
sir keep looking at me and his face..
sir like noe ordy ah...
at last siir ask him to go home..wad seyy..
bukan die yg kasi gaji lagipon.
after nazreen went back home,i so sad,.,
and lonely..
boring seyy,,,
when returned home,we tok on the phone..weeeeee^-^
kla gtg
iqa4u2c
kla gtg

hello

2009-03-07T18:36:00.000-08:00

yesterdae..after work,i nazreen went to mcd..
his treat..
haha
gd rite..ppl blanje..
nvm nx tym my turn to treat him..
well,its was spent time with him..
he so caring..
it always me who scold him..byk kali seyy
he never scold me before..
nvm i try to change..
well ok la gtg bye..

hi

2009-03-04T20:21:00.000-08:00

oh gosh it been a week i nvr met nazreen..
i missing him damn much sia..
ltr afternoon,i going to meet him..yeah!
i love him alot!!!!!!!!

hello

2009-03-01T08:08:00.000-08:00

hey..
today im work..
working with syu at base..
ya i noe last tym we quarell..
but nw we gd gd back..
haha
well..today azrina and bugan is cashier..
haha e couple working together..
happy rite??i happy for her..
well,after work,talk with bugan..
we oth walk together slowly..
no luhh..nothing..
guess wad..we just toking about nazreen luh..
i kip asking him wad hows e character of nazreen..
bla bla bla..
only he noes tat i n nazreen stead..
last few days,hang with nazreen..
he funny liao..
u noe actually at first its fun when working with him..
he lwys make me laugh..
hahha
i missing him seyy...
somemore he nvr even msg or call me???
coz of wad???
prepaid low!
ok nvm la mayb he short of moneyy..
tats y..
ltr i gt money i help him top up ..
hmm..
i cant wait o work with him seyy and also with azrina..
my top fren list..is azrina,bugan
n its tat coincedence??
azrina n bugan use to be couple of kfc..
and anyway i n azrina is close fren while bugan and nazreen is classmate ..
haha!!
so fun rite..
every1 has their own partner..
well i got go now..
iqa4u2c..
i will update soon aite!!

2009-02-22T07:31:00.000-08:00

yesterday actually i don't need to come to work but syuhaidah want me to replace her..
so i just come la lagypon ade nazreen..haha
during work,e mad mam scold me for nothing sia..
i drink slowly also she want to scold..ape duhh!! like mad..
i finish work earlier coz ade aunty kiaw..
die uat mesty cepat abz punye...
so waiting for nazreen..
rathger than wasting time wait for him,i help a bit la doing cashier closing up..
then ah nazreen say to me''next wik,i nvr cum u noe''
i then show faces sae''kan aku da ckp,mesti kau tipu aku punye''
den he like hugging on my shoulder n sae''tak la boss...aku dtg''
den waited and waited..
after tat,i waited outside toilet..he go change clothes...
when he come out,his face damn handsome seyy..
i like seyy..
but stupid me..olwys keep on my heart nvr tell him..
in the bus,i receive a call frm sis sae tat nenek is in emergency...
i was damn shocked and my expression turn to worried..
he gave me consolement..he then hold my hand tightly..and when the bus arrive,he pull my hand to chase for e bus...
i was touched by wad he did..
today,i told him evrythg wad i felt..and i accept him..
i n him stead
he damn happy sia..
hahah..
even though he smaller den me,he was so caring guy...
olways concern abot me..
by then i gtg

iqa4u2c

2009-02-20T22:14:00.000-08:00

hey today i suppose to cum work and work with nazreen tapi tibe2 manager gy delete my name..haiz..
so sad seyy never meet nazreen..tgk muke die..slalu i very happy.,
yesterday i n him msging each other..
i scold him coz asking ppl no. at fwenstr...
but he say its nt him ,its his fwen..
well..i trust him tats y i won anyhow blame him..im just asking him 1st..
i said to him,if he wanna join wad his fwen did,just go ahead but i will nt b entertaining him..
at last i sae sorry to him coz i guess i make a wild accuse to him..
but he said its ok..
den after a long while,he msg''tkla,i will always with u''.
i then test him by msging...''just imagine wad u feel if guys ask me for number''.
he den sae he gonna feel so sad,,,
so tats it..
i knew he won play m heart..
we then peaceful back..and went sleep..
i missing him lot seyy..
expecially his jokes..

signing off iqa 4u2c

2009-02-19T21:03:00.000-08:00

yesterdae work as per normal.
plan to go with nazreen..so mad of him sey ..i waited fro him for 30min like that but he still haven comes..so went off to work with cikni,,dun care him.hmmph!
then after 30 min,he arrive..
i so happy seyy..the feeling suddenly change..
haha then he ask me to eat with him.....but i scared of mam..
i then ask mam when she on call..
nazreen ate first..after few min i join him..
haha
after work,went back home with him..damn fun..he olwys make me laugh..then later he hit my hand la..trying to tease me...
when i quiet,he sure find smtg to talk to me..he seem so excited seyy..
i like him but i nvr show obvious reaction..
wait when e day cums,den i tel him my ans..
he so care for me sey,he say he hav to go hm..but at last send me hm..haha
he olways sacrifice..
ok la bye
iqa4u2c

2009-02-17T05:27:00.000-08:00

today went to visit at grandma house..she's sick..haiz..
it was so lucky every of the family members take turns to take care of her,,
in the afternoon,msg nazreen..
i share to him my problem..den he sae dun nid to scare coz he olwys be there for me to console me..he said he feel sad too coz he sae if i sad,he oso sad,,
tats is why i lyk him..coz he olways concern abt me and cares me a lot..
his smile are so sweet...
hahaha...
i missing him now...:))

iqa4u2c

2009-02-14T09:46:00.000-08:00

hey haii..
i damn tired today..haha
it seem tat today not a happy day sia..
firstly,i always been scolded by mam and nana..
menyampah betol si nana macam kakak tiri si mam pulak macam mak tiri..
naseb baik lah nazreen ader..bile kene marah jer,den tgk muke die..my heart cools down..
senyuman die manis la...
he gave me present special for valentines..
haha..i love it..
well..hmm he waiting for me...on 1 march ..an asn frm me..
haha
i feel sad for him..he kne marah ..
den he waited for me for about 1hour like that and after waiting at least i manage to spent time sitting and talking wit him..
haiz..syuhaidah wan me to take lrt wit her..so i feel nazreen being left out seyy..
kesian dier..after drop down the bus,he just walk away left me walking with syuhaidah..
i sad seyy..
coz he olways wait for me..but today he left me..
maybe he felt the same way too,,
he oso sad actually coz patotnye kite plan nak spent tym together..skali plan spoil..
psl today is nt our luck..
takper..maybe its just the beginning,,,
at work,when i talk to him,nana scold me..
when i laugh with him,nana scold me...
semue nye tak kne..
she's mad lar..

i just hoping he msg me soon..
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